Okay, kind of a strong statement, and not entirely true, I like the little ones – like the Pirate of the Caribbean at Disneyland (you know, the one 5 year olds think is a yawn…) but in general NOT a fan.
I don’t like the lack of control, the “you’ll just have to sit here and wait it out”; I don’t like the unexpected drops; I don’t like the jarring and I think they’re super noisy with all the clacking, rattling, screams of delight and shrieks of terror.
What inspired this mini-rant? Emotions and their similarity to roller coasters. I’m currently re-shaping my career. For years I said my goal after I left big corporate was to do contract gigs for any sized company and help them implement their operations. Early in my career I mainly worked for tiny start-ups; it was so much fun! I loved the new challenges and problems and the opportunity to research and implement solutions. I was a natural organizer and the flow of activity to accomplish an objective tends to just “pop-out” for me. My brain automatically says “oh, you want to be X by Y, then you’ll need to start from A at…” I do this with travel, finance, cooking, project planning – it’s just how I see things.
What I forgot in my excitement of starting a new journey is the roller coaster. One minute I’m full of optimism and enthusiasm. The next I’m despondent, despairing that I’ll ever find a job I can both excel at, and love. It’s exhausting! And like a roller coaster, not entirely predictable. I can have a day that on paper should be a “gang busters” kind of day. I got a good night’s sleep, I had a nice coffee/browse before yoga, I felt good after exercising – many of the usual aches/pains were not present and I had good flow as the day started…then I hit a something that flipped a self-doubt button and to the bottom we raced…”nope, not gonna do that today” so I shook it off, did something that would empower me for a minute and up we zoomed…cruising along for a minute, then back to the hard work of re-positioning, re-framing, re-selling…ahhh…. the floor is rushing up at me…
One of the nice things about this whole Wisdom of Friends experiment we all have going (yes, you’re in this too) is sometimes when the reality of life is getting to me it triggers and idea and I can get it off my chest with you. Selfishly it’s beneficial because I get to stay productive (I’ve bucketed WoF as a productive activity for me, I’m sure it must be for you too? 😇) and I get to process / explore “huh, why’d I do/think/feel that”. I also share because I know I’m not so unique that what I’m experiencing is a revelation but maybe there’s a nugget in how I cope/manage/navigate through a challenge that will be an “oh! cool!” for you too.
So, where’s the nugget with this roller coaster thing? I guess it’s perseverance. Today I’ve wanted off the roller coaster several times but because I’m a) committed to getting work that is flexible and that I enjoy and b) I paid a coach a lot of money to keep my honest – I kept my arms and legs inside the car and rode on. Just like on a real roller coaster where sometimes I just picture how happy I’ll be when the ride is over, today I sometimes just thought about something else for a minute. Today I’ve done dishes, vacuumed, folded laundry, written this post, messed around on Facebook, updated my budget, and returned some messages – but I’ve also worked on my personal brand, my messaging, my network and acknowledged I have to make some improvements to my LinkedIn. So, the ride is coming to a stop, I’ve got my belongings and I’m getting off now. But I persevered and I’m proud of myself.
Next time you’re struggling with a good for you but un-pleasant activity maybe the roller coaster comparison will help keep you belted in until you come to a full and complete…stop? completion? Thanks for being at the carnival with me! 🎢. See you soon 🌻 ❤️