I like to draw on other aspects of my life to teach myself lessons. Being able to show my inner 5 year old “why” or “how” is often more effective for me than trying to convince my inner teenager to “eat my emotional vegetables”. The inner adult in me is not really part of this equation, she frequently throws up her hands and leaves the room due to her frustration of having to “have this conversation again”.
So the other day I had an epiphany…I am getting from others, and situations, what I am expecting – I’m telegraphing. Here are 2 non-human examples that “prove” my theory.
I ride horses. I’m a nervous/anxious person with a desire to control things to minimize risk. Horses take their cues from the “lead mare” and the herd. When you’re a rider, your job is to demonstrate to the horse that all is well. If the horse has spooked (jumped out from under you for non-horse people) in a particular spot, or in response to a trigger (baby carriage) then when you see a baby carriage you tense up. Your body telegraphs fear. The horse doesn’t rationalize, “oh, it’s a baby carriage, last time I saw one one of those I lost my sh*t and dumped my rider” – instead the horse feels your anxiety and thinks “clearly we’re about to die” and spooks (jumps out from under you). Our trainer has told us many times “your horse is spooking there because you’re expecting it’. We all roll our eyes and complain about our silly horse – but when we can let go of fear/anxiety and actually just ride on – the horse will too. Not a horse person, how about dogs?
The other day I was walking with a friend and her very sweet, docile, somewhat jumpy rescue dog. As the 3 of us were happily wandering along we saw a French bulldog. Apparently her dog HATES Frenchies and as we were walking towards the “threat” she decided she’d try to not prepare for the inevitable Cujoifcaion (yes, Stephen King reference) of her lapdog. As she and I kept chatting and stopped to coo over the baby (the French was only 7 months old) her little dog joined in the discussion, happily sniffing behinds and saying hello in his doggie way. No anticipation, no Cujoifcaion.
Okay, now for some human evidence. There’s a recipe for conflict in my house. My retired husband is unsuspectingly spending his time as he chooses (lately online poker – hey, it’s Corona lock down folks, we’re all making due) and having a beer. I’m working all day (’cause I’m not retired) and when I emerge at 5ish I’m annoyed about my day, ready for my beer (well, wine) and don’t want to be asked “what’s for dinner”. Then, because I’m peevish he’s like “what’s your problem” and now we’re squabbling. Not having a commute home to offload the debris of the work day can be a challenge. So, lately what I’ve been doing is anticipating this little tete-a-tete and we get to it even faster. The other day I realized I was spooking my horse (don’t tell him I compared him to my horse, he hates that) and decided I’d approach it differently. I created a commute (hid in the bathroom) shifted my own irritability and came out in a good mood. Guess what – that’s what I got back!
Well. With that success I tried a harder experiment. My husband is kind of cheating, he likes me (most of the time). So – work colleagues! On a meeting for a project that we’re all “over” and feeling cranky and blames about. Same outcome! By not anticipating conflict and preparing for it, I didn’t get it.
If you need more convincing, check out this excerpt from a WSJ opinion piece: Worried About a Difficult Conversation? Here’s Advice From a Hostage Negotiator.
“How should you prepare for a difficult conversation? Mr. Voss: We often prepare but don’t realize it. When we think about the conversation, we picture ourselves getting mad. That is preparation. And we default to our highest level of preparation. So if that is all you prepared for, that is what you are going to get.”
We get what we prepare for, what we anticipate!
Okay, I think you’ve got the concept. So – what do you telegraph? Where are you “getting what you expect”. How do you want to change that?
I’d love to hear about your experiences 🙂